I Had an Affair. . .
No, it wasn’t with Tiger Woods!! But with all of the revelations coming out (and who knows what is real and what isn’t), I can’t help but think of those women and what was going on with them. You see I can relate.
Yes, its true, in 1989 I met a man who I thought, wished and hoped was my soul mate and he was already taken. . . and we had an affair for many years, too many years. It was a reflection of how little I valued myself.
I see it now (with 20/20 hindsight) very differently than I did at the time I was experiencing it.
At the time I was in AGONY!
At the time I was living the role of the Victim.
At the time I did not love myself respectfully.
I even knew he had others. I used to ask him how many were in his “Bull Pen.”
I thought “If only I was ____________ enough, he’d be devoted to me.”
I was the definition of insane: Taking the same action and expecting a different result.
I am sharing this today, not because of the revelations about Tiger Woods. . . but rather so you can reflect on how You are VALUING YOURSELF.
What do You REALLY WANT?
What do you SAY you Want, and yet do not allow the space to RECEIVE IT?
I could not have met my soul mate while I was involved with this married man. There was no space for him in my life. I would not have recognized him. I was not ready.
I had to prepare.
It is true – to have intentional love you must be PREPARED!
I wasn’t prepared to meet this married man. I was drawn to him like bees to honey. I was obsessed with him – literally AND figuratively. This was NOT Love.
Wherever you might be with your relationship with yourself it is possible for YOU to HAVE IT ALL!
I know this because I lived it. I transformed my life. I went from Victim to Victoria!
In matters of the heart, we want to follow our heart. Fill your heart with LOVE. Self-Love. Take the best possible care of YOU. Have the relationship you wish from another with Yourself.
Listen to your deepest desire and take ACTION toward that result. Do not settle for less. YOU CAN HAVE IT ALL!
It starts with evaluating your relationship with You. Pay attention to how you treat yourself and if you are not sure, look at how the people closest to you are treating you – they are simply a mirror for what is going on inside.
Look at the questions in our previous post. How are you treating yourself every day? Is it loving and supportive?
If you truly want to have LOVE in your life – the Real Deal – then create that feeling in your life currently.
My life changed dramatically when I told Mr. Married to lose my phone number and forget my name. I meant it. I moved on.
There was a time that I thought I had given Mr. Married the best years of my life. Now I am living the BEST YEARS of my life with my Beloved.
You can have this too.
